If i could be in many places at one time... How great would that be? But God only gave us 24 hours. Thus i have to use them wisely, and not squander them away.

Sigh... Thou is the one who said so, yet thou isn't doing so. how is it that i have nearly 10 readings to complete this week? I don't like this feeling of lagging behind schedule...


You cross the gap..
The great divide.. 
took me from where i was..
and led me on to where i should be..
Thus i say..
dance i lift into Your hands..
them i lift into Your hands..
work i lift into Your hands..
Lord, help me through.. 

cool photo right! Found this randomly as i was in school with a 2 hour break between my lessons. haha. Thank God for such a great day! Somehow getting used to uni life was way easier than getting used to JC life. Travelling time isn't that long, though i have not really made any real new close friends, but i'm glad for university! I'm guessing it's because i'm learning stuff that i love, and not that i haven't the choice. =D

Fight on! readings may be piling up like a bottomless pit, but it's fun! If you are able to understand what you are reading..

CNY has been interesting. Didn't really go visiting last year because of my grandpa, and besides, i only went to 1 house each for both my mom and my dad's side this year. All the relatives just gathered at one place. Funny though, i started a conversation with one of the uncles, which got me to realise that the past assumptions that i have nothing to talk about with my relatives is false. Well, true that i'm not close to many of my external family members, but talking to the elderly folks on their lifestyle in the past opened my eyes much.

Ok, i admit, i had to "interview" someone older than 50yrs on their lifestyle in Singapore for one of my modules, but hey, learning how they actually had to go a Japanese school, their poor lifestyles, or even an encounter with Japanese troops themselves is WOAH.... we take for granted, sometimes, the peace and prosperity we have currently.. dont we? =)

I'm 20!! And i'm gonna love every bit of it! Last few years i spent my birthday quite differently. It isn't the part where it's like primary school narrative stories that goes "Everyone forgetting it's my birthday, but they ended up surprising me" and all, but it's different every year. For one, i'm not sick!

I guess, most importantly, i got to spend it with special people that holds much place in my heart. With Sophia and the precious ppt that they put up for me.. and even spending it having reunion dinner with my relatives, part of celebrating my birthday too.. weird to have so many people singing "happy birthday" to me when usually it's just the 4 of us in my family, but a good weird.. lol!

Birthday celebrations post will be up soon i guess, cus somehow... my birthday celebrations is like a period.. haha!

There was one thing that stuck in my head the entire time though. It's new revelation of Matthew 14:28-29... Mark nor John's gospel mentioned Peter in Jesus's walking on water, but I came to a new understanding.

Jesus said,"come", and Peter went.

Why would Jesus say "come" when Peter requested it, and from the text in verse 24, the waters weren't exactly still. Won't it make you feel uncomfortable? because somehow deep in your mind you'll be thinking it's too dangerous? Yet Jesus said "come". Why?

My answer would be found in the previous sentence when Jesus told the people in the crew "Take courage! It is I. Don't be afraid." True he's assuring them that He's not a ghost, but at the same time, it shows His power over the seas, that even through treacherous waters He's in control. That "Come", to me, seems more like "come! It'll be alright. Trust Me. Come." If i were Peter, in that point in time, i'll feel uncomfortable. unpredictable winds that threaten to sink me, waves that may just cover me within minutes, not a comfortable thought. Somehow.. God is found outside of our comfort zones, for it is when we are out of control and out of our comfort zone, can He be in control and reign. Would you choose to stay in your comfort zone?

I know my answer, what about yours?

Trust and Obey.. 
Obedience begets personal revival...
help us to choose You...

So i went to NTU today with YanLi to visit HuiKeng.. and turns out they wanted to celebrate my birthday! lol.. and they just had to say it...

Yep, spending my last few minutes as a 19year old.. blogging! It's not anything special or anything wild, but yea, somehow, it felt good. Actually, i even felt like counting down to my 20th birthday! though i've got a nagging feeling that my readings are piling up!

I'm wondering now, why am i blogging when i don't really have much to say? It's as though my mind's blank. hmm...

It's a funny thing, trust. Just the other day my dad was driving me to dance practice during the peak hour. He didn't take the usual route to school, but he went on a route that seemed to be leading away from school. I didn't question why, i just kept wondering why he chose to go down this road. Eventhough i wanted to question him if he was going the wrong way, i believed that he would send me to school eventually. off course it didn't help that i was already late and somehow he was going further and further away from our destination. still i kept quiet.

It was only when he somehow ended up at clementi road that i realised my dad only took a different route that i did not know of. He didn't tell me anything, that he's going by a completely different route, he just brought me.

Isn't that sometimes how God is like with us? I may not be able to understand what i'm going through, and perhaps God is keeping quiet, but He'll never harm us, and He knows where He's taking us.

another humanly aspect of trust.. it hurts when one doesn't trust you enough and misunderstands.. R.O.P.B.


never like this before.. 
alone..
only You..

Reading alot nowadays.. just not the readings i'm suppose to read for my modules. hehe! just finished my reflections on one of my module called "Popular Culture in Singapore". Funny how i took so long to think of an answer to a reflection question that in the end i gave up and slept. question was "What is one aspect of Singapore's cultural and social history that you are curious to learn about in this module?". Frankly speaking, i've no clue. Not that i'm not proud of my country's past, it's just that, somehow i feel most of the "culture" Singapore has is borrowed. Off course many other country, even Japan has borrowed culture too. It's just that there's nothing in Singapore, i feel, is indigenous.
 

closer...
deeper...
never to let go..

Despite being in a situation that could have caused us to act or feel otherwise, we choose to let go and enjoy! That how Yvonne and I spent our Wednesday together at the airport! lol..

Initially wanted to send the Jiang family off before their flight departs at 5.50pm, but there were many details which we forgot, like which terminal they would be at, and a crucial one, the Jaing family weren't informed that there were people sending them off. Which meant that they could have gone straight into the departure hall without waiting for anyone.. =S that happened... haha

Yvonne and i saw did saw the family though, through a glass panel that allowed visitors to look into the departure hall.. haha and we waved bye at the plane they were in! (at least i think that was the plane.. hehe!)

It was fun still! =D, and we had a scrumptious meal after that at old Changi Road! =)

Circumstances may influence our choices, but ultimately, the choice is still ours to make.


the topic of going overseas is floating across my mind recently, especially since some of my friends preferred to stay in Singapore than to go overseas to study. Certainly mindset is one thing, another is the people. something made me think a little while being at my cousin's "man yue" (chinese) today. my other uncle was telling us how he decided to go overseas again, it somehow we were discussing if going overseas by tour or on your own is better. we brought up the issue of having a whole bunch of friends to go along, yet my uncle said that he preferred to just be with his wife alone, not because he didn't like having friends around, but too many opinions.

Too many opinions... hmm.. that is true isn't it? Many a times we longed for all our friends to be with us doing something, but i came to realised that too many people sharing their opinions won't make matters easier, it may even sour relationships... Ephesians 4:3 "make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace."

something to think about... =)

wanting peace isn't enough right?
You called us to be peace-makers too.. 
Thank You for that lesson..