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Saturday, June 12, 2021
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 We have started preparing for the wedding since last year end, where we got the big items down. I've even sourced for wedding decor through taobao during their 11.11 sale which amount to about $60 for decor. not bad! #patsmyself But from then till now, it's always been a do it little by little slowly, one at a time. Come late May early June, there's been a surge of mind activities of planning the pre-wedding album, the bridal studio appointment, the wedding invites, the wedding favours, the tea ceremony, the guodali, the sidianjin.. couple with more room renovation works and furnitures to buy.. It's both exciting and exasperating at the same time. I find it exciting to be planning for something meaningful to the two of us, but it's also infuriating when i have to meet so many people's wants/needs. Designing, for example, has been fun. but when there's so many comment about so many things, wow.. i get annoyed. lol. Though all in all i do think i benefit from the comments and advice and help given by my family. helps me to train my patience too right? When you get more people involved, namely your family, there's bound to be differences in tastes.. but i do appreciate the fact that both families are also involved in the planning, because it really keeps us accountable. Hopefully it doesn't get too stressful.. for now it's okay, I'm just really excited for my upcoming gown fitting! yay! |
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Friday, May 21, 2021
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 Finally.... I like bike rides.. it takes a lot to be able to carry another person behind you, and it also takes alot of confidence and trust for the rider to trust the driver. It's also about a journey together, being able to travel together, and relying on each other to keep the bicycle balanced. at the same time it allows you to have conversations with the wind blowing.. ahh that's beautiful. I do like cycling together too. It provides a different form of bonding activity, especially since it trains me to use one hand riding since he likes to hold hands while cycling.. And ofc, what's a date with him without mishaps.. the unexpected things that can happen with bike rides.. chain spoil la.. taking apart the entire bike to fix it... roped in the dad to come.. yet still cannot fix.. end up still need to pay the guy at the shop.. dunno how to haggle price.. aiyo.. but it's okay.. I got to ride him too! the world needs more bicycles than cars.. lol.. |
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Saturday, May 15, 2021
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 Recently I've been reflecting on how far I've come in my journey in the CCA. With the introduction of new members and Joey being out of the scene, coupled with the restrictions of covid 19, it think it has kinda made me a little more reflective about my role in GB. I tend to like to organize things a bit more, to ensure that the CCA runs smoothly, so I'll be the note taker, and the one "chasing" people to do up their badge claims. I'll be the one initiating the various meetings so that we are all involved in the planning. Yet, there's a significant sense of the lack of teamwork here. I'm not sure if it's just me, but generally people aren't just pro-active in finishing what they need to do. and honestly, after 5 years of helming the fort.. i'm tired. It's not about the lack of support, but it's as though everyone has their own minds about something, nothing gets really done. there's no common goal at all.. Maybe im just tired feeling as though i'm the only one putting in effort to make things happen for the girls... |
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Tuesday, April 27, 2021
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 Even since restarting my dance journey last year end, I feel that my body isn't really how it used to be. I don't seem to be able to catch the choreo fast enough as i used to, nor in terms of execution. it's like my mental capacity to be able to retain movements isn't as fast as it used to be, but i was just wondering what happened in the span of a year and a half? i know my injury made me stop dancing for a good half a year, but it shouldn't deteriorate so much right? is this the classical example of how it can take many years to build an empire, but seconds to destroy it? nooooooooo...... now, i can't even do back to back classes, my body aches terribly after that. Even my neck area hurts.. nooooooooo...... Sigh... is this the sign of aging? does that mean i have to stop dancing soon? nooooooooooo...... |
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Saturday, April 17, 2021
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Wow.. i merely chanced upon this anime and thought to try it out.. and wow... what i initially thought was just another simple fantasy adventure with a bit of romance kind of anime, boy this anime got me good. WOW...  I actually stopped watching the first season for a bit, because the dark side of the anime was really disturbing. but the three major arc of the first season is pretty well done, once Subara (the main character) managed to get over all the depressing side of his "superpower" (which isn't easy.. if i were him.. wow.. ), and uses what he has learnt to create tactics to fight seemingly overwhelming opponents..  Second season was a little less difficult for me in terms of the disturbing scenes, which then allowed me to enjoy the anime a bit more. I like that there are growth in Emilia too. aside from the complicated world dimension they're in (like, why is there the witches and witch factors and archbishops, and then the throne... wow.. it's complex for my little mind to comprehend), i found it still enjoyable in terms of the story plot and character development.  It really brought to light the idea of death. Subara's "power" of being able to reset his time at a certain checkpoint, on the bright side, allows him to override certain mistakes he did. yet at the same time, in order to reset, he has to die.. that fact itself is cruel. too many a times i see in Subara the difficult decision for him to sacrifice his own life (but not without the pain) in order to reset time. yet it just makes death all the more painful. to say that you have died a thousand times doesn't mean that you'll become fearless.  The despair that Subara felt when he kept trying and trying but failing and failing is telling. Even i as an observer could feel how he felt. It's not like a video game where you can keep trying the difficult level as an when you like. It's a life, things will keep progressing in the wrong direction until he ALONE does something about it. But many a times, that SOMETHING is really difficult to decipher all by yourself. the loneliness he must have felt. wow..  Take the arc with Witch's cult maniacal Petelgeuse as an example.. I honestly cringed.. and found every bit of the antagonist disturbing. but his effect on Subara is even more disturbing..  till the point where Subara could lose all sense of himself.. im just thankful he has people by his side to encourage him on, namely Rem.  Which is a pretty interesting relationship they have developed. I see that the main character doesn't have any physical superpowers, but yet has many strong allies made in the course of the anime, who can fight damn well. a little thing about influence here..  ofc, i didn't really get to see how the romance between Emilia and Subara until the second season, where they FINALLY came round to support each other (instead of Subara's weird manly ego to want to protect and protect without first understanding what she was going through in the trial)  Interesting plot i must say.. though a little to complicated in terms of the world building for me.. |
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Tuesday, March 30, 2021
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Recently conversations with the higher ups made me feel like I'm on an emotional rollercoaster. What's the point of a title with the job description of a leader, when everything is all talk but no actual action. Perhaps not everyone is cut out to be leader. or perhaps our system is such that as you remain in the system longer, the higher you climb even if you do not have the necessary qualifications. Or perhaps you do have the paper qualification, but not the qualities. Its the same if I were to give the example of a intellectually smart person who can write tons of academic articles but can't teach. In my conversations with my RO, there's just that little mentioned about personal growth. All i felt was the refusal to acknowledge where I wish myself to venture into, but more of a warning of the possibility of rejection. Yet in my conversations with my VP, i could sense that she's really wanting to give sound advice to whatever career progression I wish to venture in.. Then in my conversations with my P, wow.. it was offending, with the lack of recognition and just pure dismissive. Sigh... the world of politics.. |
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Saturday, March 20, 2021
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 There is something about musical boxes that makes things magical. The tingling sounds it makes, the melody from just bits of metal hitting each other, the art in making the sophisticated box, adding other elements to fill the room with music that is soothing to the ears and to the soul.. Maybe thats why it was so highly sought after in the past for the rich. and even now, when musical boxes are more commonplace than ever, it's still a pretty little thing to gift to people. It's beautiful... and magical.. |
